I feel nothing
Longing for something
Relax take a minute to take your clothes
off show me what your made of
Drugs
To sooth me
All Alone
Leave me here I'm dying
All Alone
Just kick me in the face
All Alone
All alone and trying
All Alone
I Suffocate
I'm not gifted
Slightly twisted
Try hard; try harder just to see if I can push you any further
Drugs
To soothe me
All Alone
Leave me here I'm dying
All Alone
Just kick me in the face
All Alone
All alone and trying
All Alone
I Suffocate
Please believe, You save me rearrange me
I can feel, You're feelings running through me
Take away, My sorrow, my tomorrow
Cradle me
All Alone
Leave me here I'm dying
All Alone
Just kick me in the face
All Alone
All alone and trying
All Alone
I Suffocate
Suffocate
Just Go
I'm kinda numb
It's so distorted
You've left me here with
This damage that you've caused
My tortured faces
Those f*cked up places
In my memories
None of them I've lost
But
I haven't been here long enough to know
Every time I feel this I just loose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go
It's kinda sick
I feel dirty
It's kinda tragic
I'm kinda insecure
But I know
That I'm not the only
One that can fix
Whatever's wrong I'm sure
But
I haven't been here long enough to know
Every time I feel this I just loose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go
I feel so numb
From all I've become
I'll take you down
I feel so down
I'm water while you drown
You're lifted while I'm down
I'm cancer in your womb
I'm the needle in your spoon
But
I haven't been here long enough to know
Every time I feel this I just loose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go
Just Go
With these fucking Lies
All these fucking Lies
Me
I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means
I guess my mother never loved my dad
And now I wear it on my sleeve
My sister called me just the other day
It felt so good to hear her voice
My problem is I don't have much to say
I guess she doesn't have a choice
And I'm sorry
Look at me
I'm so pathetic
Can't Believe
I'm just an addict
I never needed anyone to help me I begging you
To please come save me from myself
Save me from my...
My mother's always tried to change herself
She never learned to let things be
She doesn't know how bad that f*cked me up
Cause now she seems so fake to me
But I Love Her
Look at me
I'm so pathetic
Can't Believe
I'm just an addict
I never needed anyone to help me I begging you
To please come save me from myself
Save me from my...self
You push me but I won't fall
I've been programmed to take it all
And shove it way down inside
Like my father
I'm so pathetic
Can't believe
I'm just an addict
I try to be
I'm failing at it
Life to me
Is just a habit
I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means
Raw
The pictures left with me won't fade
These images effect me every day
Cause of you I feel I don't deserve
The life I see in her
Just don't leave me...Raw
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
I've never been someone who knows
My choices haunt me everywhere I go
Finally did something right for myself
My life for you and no one else
Just don't leave me...Raw
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
I feel so cold
I can't take this
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
Raw
Mudshovel
You take away
I feel the same
You take away
I feel the same
All the promises you made to me in vain
I lost myself inside your tainted smile again
Cause...
You can feel my anger
You can feel my pain
You can feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings
They will bring you pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again
I feel the betrayed
Stuck in your ways
And you rip me apart with the brutal things you say
Can't deal with this sh*t anymore I just look away
Cause...
You can feel my anger
You can feel my pain
You can feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings
They will bring you pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again
Mudshuvel
You take away
I feel the same
All these promises
You promised only pain
If you take away
And leave me with nothing again
Cause
You can feel my anger
You can feel my pain
You can feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings
They will bring you pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again
You will feel my anger
You will feel my pain
You will feel my torment
Driving you insane
I can't fight these feelings
They will bring you pain
You can't take away
I'll be whole again
Mudshuvel
Home
I force myself through another day
Can't explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you I've had to walk away
From everything
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Another sleepless night again
Hotel room my only friend and friends like that just don't add up
To anything
And I try so hard to be
Everything that I could never take away from you again
I heard you say
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
I cannot forget
I live with regret
I live through this
I can't see through this
I can't do this anymore
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
A Flat
Trust in me can't trust
I know, I don't believe it
All my life so scarred
What for, you can't conceive it
Everything you fear
I'll be, you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear
So loud, why can't you hear it
I'm OK
All my faith is gone
You think, I couldn't find it
Pieces falling down
Shattered, nothing behind it
In my mind alone
Lost here, I'm separated
Crawl deeper in my hole
Safe here, from what I've hated
All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know, I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Don't show, can't believe in
Wanna show you that I'm good for something
I can't, you won't let me
All your artificial words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me
And I hate myself
And I hate my face
And I hate my world
And I hate my ways
I'm not OK
I'm OK
Trust in me can't trust
I know, I don't believe it
All my life so scarred
What for, you can't conceive it
Everything you fear
I'll be, you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear
So loud, why can't you hear it
I'm OK
All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know, I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Don't show, can't believe in
Wanna show you that I'm good for something
I can't, you won't let me
All your artificial words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me
Crawl
I'm so lonely
You're so beautiful
Not the only
One who's pitiful
Stretched and torn I lay here in pieces
Craving all of your deadly vices
Like to think I'm not addicted
But I guess I wear it well
And I crawl, while you spit
And I crawl, through your sh*t
Here I am now
Not a lot has changed
Nothing better
Everything's the same
Late at night I can hear your voices
Talking shit about all my choices
You would think that you've known me forever
Just because you know my name
And I crawl, while you spit
And I crawl, through your sh*t
Everything falls apart
And I crawl, while you spit
And I crawl, through your shit
Spleen
Can't breath
Empty I give everything to you
Can't breath
I feel there's nothing left to do
Can't breath
I don't like today
Take it all away
Just like what you say
I don't want you
Kinda like the way
Everything is gray
Just like what you say
I don't need you
I don't look like you
Do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too
I need you
Can't breath
I feel you are what saves my soul
Can't breath
I don't like today
Take it all away
Just like what you say
I don't want you
Kinda like the way
Everything is gray
Just like what you say
I don't need you
I don't look like you
Do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too
I need you
I don't understand it you're killing this planet
The scabs on her face it's a fucking disgrace
I blame you
Can't breath
I don't like today
Take it all away
Just like what you say
I don't want you
Kinda like the way
Everything is gray
Just like what you say
I don't need you
I don't look like you
Do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too
I need you
Excess Baggage (Unlisted Track)
Well I know the words, but I can't really speak them
To you
And I hide all the pain that I've gained with my wisdom
From you
And I'm eaten alive, by what I hold inside
All the things that I live with I can't easily hide
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you
It's not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
Until I'm not alive
When you look at my face, does it seem just as ugly?
To you?
I can't seem to erase all the scars I have lived with
From you
I'm so sick of this place
This taste in my mouth
Cause of you I can't figure what I'm all about
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you
It's not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
'Til I'm not alive
As I walk along these streets
I see a man that walks alone
Distant echo of people's feet
He has no place to call his own
A shot rings out from a roof overhead
A crack head asks for change nearby
An old man lies in an alleyway dead
A little girl lost just stands there and cries
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do
A boy just 13 on the corner for sale
Swallows his pride for another hit
Overpopulation there's no room in jail
But most of you don't give a shit
That your daughters are porno stars
And your sons sell death to kids
You're so lost in your little worlds
Your little worlds you'll never fix
You turn away
As I walk along the streets
Soaking up the acid rain
Underneath the taxi cabs
I hear the streets cry out in vain
Pressure
I just need this to be all right
I can't feel this another night
I can't take this I come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
Necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping can't stay awake
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
If you need me I'll be here
Half unconscious to escape my fear
My head hurts this shit isn't getting me high
My chest is so tight I think I am going to die
My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin
As I wait for this valium to slowly
kick in
Fade
I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
the thought is too
Much to conceive
I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
That my life became 'cause
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to
Express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface
I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
So where were you
When all this I was going through
You never took the time to ask me
Just what you could do
It's Been Awhile
It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
Since I first saw you
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
Since I could call you
But everything I can't
remember as fucked up as it
all may seem the consequences
that I've rendered I've stretched
myself beyond my means
It's been awhile
Since I could say that I wasn't addicted
Subce I could say I love myself as well
Since I've gone and fucked things
up just like I always do
But all that shit seems to
disappear when I'm with you
But everything I can't remember
as fucked up as it may seem
The consequences that I've rendered,
I've gone and fucked things up again.
Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away,
Just one more peaceful day
It's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
Since I said I'm sorry
Since I've seen the way
the candle lights your face
But I can still remember
just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember as
fucked up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me I cannot blame this on my
father he did the best he could for me
It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since I said
I'm sorry
Change
If ever you had said to me before
That I would live this life that I am
Living now I guess it's all so strange
To feel the way I do inside but
Have so much that I could feel some
Pride for in my life so why is it that
I feel like this
How do I feel? I've been here before,
I've felt this
Retreat to a place, a place within me
I need this. Keep it all down, bottled inside
It breaks me to torment again and
Torture me like it used to
I try and try to break away from all the hate
I'm feeling for everyone of you that's ever
Done me wrong. I need to justify the reasons
For the way I'm living. I guess I can't cause
I don't feel like I deserve it
So now the waves they have subsided
And my soul is bleeding I can't take away
The shame I feel, forgive me
Can't Believe
Respect, respect what is found
Respect should abound
Respect everything that you leave
I can't believe
Can't believe
And I, I can't believe
I can't believe all the travesty
Surrounding me, I, I want to flee
I want to flee from everything
In front of me I
Can't believe
Never again, trusted in you
Fuck everything that you think I should be
I stand, never again, never again
Can't believe
Epiphany
Your words to me just a whisper
Your faces so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
'Cause it's always raining in my head
So I speak to you in riddles because
My words get in my way. I smoke the
whole thing to my head and feel it
Wash away 'Cause I can't take anymore
Of this, I want to come apart,
or dig myself a little hole inside
your precious heart
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
I am nothing more than a little boy inside
That cries out for attention,
though I always try to hide
And I talk to you like children,
but I don't know
I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed
But it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
Suffer
The more you see the more you do
The television's feeding you,
write what you want to hear, anger and fear,
because you suffer the hate you feel won't go away
you're all programmed to feel this way to live
another day within a world that loves to suffer
And then I come to find everything's O.K.
seen this all before but that was yesterday
try to walk right through the messes that I've made
just let me enjoy the life here that I've made
I tried to give it all to you
Can't take anymore to do with this it hurts inside,
I know why I hide
cause I suffer I tried to keep it all inside
Didn't leave me too much pride forced it all down
inside forced myself to make me suffer
And then I come to find x2
Safe Place
Another day
inside my world
I'm married to
you and this road
A road that never lets
me sleep so there's
no way to escape the
demons I am
forced to keep
And then I find you here
Through your eyes
everything's clear
And I'm home
inside your arms
but I'm alone for now
I mean the best
with what I say
It doesn't always sound that way
I never learned to
work things out cause
in my family all we
ever seem to do is shout
But then I find you here
Through your eyes
everything's clear
And I'm home
inside your arms
but I'm alone for now
And when I try to sleep
the drugs I take
are killing me - I think of you
to ease my pain but you're so far
Now it's time to say goodbye
I love you baby please don't cry
'cause then I'll find you here
Through your eyes everything's clear
and I'm home inside your arms but I'm alone for now
For You
To my mother, to my father,
It's your son or it's your daughter
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn it up for you?
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
The silence is what kills me
I need someone to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make decisions 'cause I sit here locked
inside my head remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
All your insults and your curses make
me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like I'm nothing but
you made me so do something
Because I'm fucked up becuase you are
Need attention, attention you couldn't give
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
Outside
And you, bring me to my knees
again All the times,
I had to beg you please
- in vain
All the time,
that I felt insecure
for you and I leave my
burdens at the door
But I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All the times that I felt
like this won't end
was for you
And I taste what I could
never have
it's from you
All the times that I've
tried, my intentions,
full of pride
But I waste more time
Than anyone
All the times that
I've cried,
all this wasted,
it's all inside
And I feel all this
pain stuffed it down
It's back again and
I lie here in bed
All alone, I can't mend
- but I feel
Tomorrow will be O.K
Waste
Your mother came up to me,
she wanted answers only she should know,
only she should know
It wasn't easy to deal
with the tears that rolled down her face.
I had no answers 'cause
I didn't even know you
But these words
They can't replace,
the life you
the life you waste.
How could you paint this picture?
Was life as bad as it should seem that
There were no more options for you?
I cant explain how I feel
I've been there many times before.
I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me
But these words
They don't replace
the life you waste
Did daddy not love you
Or did he love you just too much
Did he control you
Did he live through you at your cost
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own?
Well fuck them
And fuck her
And fuck him
And fuck you
For not having the strength in your heart to pull through
I've had doubts
I have failed
I've fucked up
I've had plans
Doesn't mean I should take my life with my own hands
But these words
They don't replace
the life you waste
Take It
I feel like this won't go away
No matter how hard I try to
Squeeze my eyes shut so I can't see
The pain in you this pain in me - in me
But everything that I can
say to you Won't help you
everything you need Is right
in front of you - just take it
I know that I am really not here
To represent what I am not clear
About in my head sometimes I feel
Fucked up just like you do - like you do
Try to make it through the daily pain That you feel
maybe tomorrow won't be So bad,
I know it 'cause - I once felt
that way Northing I could say
Made it go away I lived through this
I still feel this I just live for my tomorrow
Just make it go away - she makes it go away